Myers Briggs

So, I keep reading blogs, from many different bloggers, about their personality type. It seems like every post I read mentions the Myers Briggs test. Okay, that may be a slight exaggeration but still I've been reading a lot of them! Finally I thought, maybe I should take this test. So, I took the first online test I found. The results - ENFJ. hmmm, I don't like some of those words. I fight the fact that I'm an extrovert constantly and "Judging" that sounds like an awful word:(

But the more I read about the "ENFJ" the more I realize that I am reading about myself. It's weird. But, I still wasn't completely convinced so I took about 8 more online tests. Guess what? They also said ENFJ. So, now I completely convinced that this is my personality. And honestly, it makes sense.

The main descriptions that caught my eye were these... (all found HERE) 

"The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to not reveal their true selves." okay, WOW! I have said this over and over again to my therapist over the years. I also thought it was a flaw in my brain, but reading this makes sense. It's not a brain flaw, I'm feeling this way because I haven't opened up to the people around me enough - I feel like no one really knows me.

"Living in the world of people possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily bored and restless with the present." HaaHaa! This is totally me. Always planning something but most plans and ideas go no where.

"An ENFJ who has not found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty."  I identify with this some of the time, mostly when I'm depressed. Depression leads me to feeling like I don't belong which then leads to those tendencies of worry and guilt.

"ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people." SOOOO ME!! I need alone time, I need quiet, I need stillness. But I don't like any of those things:(

"Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking. ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate them." Okay, this one is scary. I'm pretty sure I've ran really good people off because of my need to "help" them. Just like it says, I can get under people's skin. Good in some cases, bad in others. Manipulation is scary. And I'm sad to admit, I'm good at it. For years, I didn't even know I was doing it, I had manipulated myself:( But now, I'm aware of it and have to be careful not to sway people to my side with my words. It's tricky, I feel like this is somewhat a gift - for example, I can easily talk you out of that dress that looks amazing on you because it's expensive and you don't need it, and you will leave not regretting the dress but feeling empowered and beautiful. But I could also talk you into buying the dress for me instead, shameful:( When you look at the list of "Celebrities" who are ENFJ you see Oprah and Martin Luther Kind Jr and Nelson Mandela but then you also see Yasser Arafat and Joseph Goebbels, two extremely evil people. In fact this is what Hilter said "Goebbels is the one who is the most like me as a human being.", this is scary stuff ya'll!

So, of course in true ENFJ character I have mainly listed negative characteristics of my personality. But, there are many good ones too. But, I love when something I hate about myself is given a reason for existence. Do you know what I mean? If there is a reason for why I am that way, then maybe I can understand how to not do those things. Now that I have read that manipulation can be a result of a poorly developed ENFJ, than I will work on developing myself more. I will be more aware of my words and be careful to watch my motives. 

This was my fav part. Apparently I should be looking for a INFP for a mate. So the first four celebrities that pop up for INFP are these...

Not off to a good start, folks. They are all dead and they all died at a very young age and they all died tragically. But they all made music:) It just made me laugh. It was a dark laugh but a laugh still.

I am so afraid you guys are out. I'm afraid that I've shared to much and have been too honest and now I'm feeling alone again in this giant online world. Or maybe by saying this last statement I'm just trying to manipulate you into leaving me an encouraging comment. Grrrr.... I don't even know:(