May 2, 2012

Trusting (in)RL

So, I've been quietly trying to challenge myself by trusting more people. Especially, people of the Christian persuasion. I've been very hurt in the past but I KNOW that this will not be the case with ALL Christians. So, I awhile a go now, I started trusting one Christian and that turned out good, so I let a few more in, and now...I find myself calling these folks family. I can't express how hard it has been and still is, my natural instinct is to keep all my dirt inside. BUT - I know I can't really have the relationships I so dearly long for without trusting the people around me with the real and dirty me. 

Lately I've been reading a lot on the (in)courage blog and I've been so enjoying this online community of real Christian woman. The honesty on this blog is amazing - and I LOVE it. When I started, I mostly just read the posts Nester wrote. But slowly I got sucked in to more and more blogs. Particularly, I fell in love with Annie Downs. Now, I'm sorta stalking her and secretly hoping that she visits Nester again soon so I can stalk her in person;) But more than stalking, I've been so inspired by her. 

This past weekend inCourage hosted the (in)RL conference and Nester and I attended the one in Cornelious. I was definitely skeptical about going to this. Figuring it may end up being more about dealing with your husband and kids, and although I don't mind that kinda talk - I get uncomfortable when it's only about that.  But, since Nester was going I thought I go. 

I'm so glad I did. It was fun and funny and sometimes uncomfortable, but that good kind of uncomfortable. You know, the kind of feeling you get when you are stepping out of your comfort zone and knowing that it's the right thing. Below is our whole little group. Annie (my best friend who doesn't know yet) was a big topic of our little group. We watched her read one of my fav posts she wrote this past year and it brought tears to my eyes, again. She is single. Yes, you heard that right - a Christian blogger who is single! Just like me:) I really thought I might have been the one of the only ones out there. But, not only is she single - she is openly talking about the hardships about being a Christian single. But she also is showing what an awesome, amazing, awe-inspiring life you can lead. I LOVE this!! Everyone was touched by her blog, even the married ones!

{photo stolen from here}




 I watched Sara's story tonight - and oh my goodness. What an amazing woman she was! I hope you will take a moment and watch it. I promise, you will be blessed. 

Our sweet host, Tracie did such an amazing job! Not only did she make us feel so welcome and loved but she also made us yummy, yummy food and amazing swag bags. Also, she kept us on topic, which is hard to do with a room full of woman. Thanks so much Tracie. 



see those crotched sand dollars - amazing!
They were made by Dawn from Dawn Beyond Grace.


and some of my favs! 
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So, long story short. So far my "trusting project" has been going well. Who knows if life-long friendships will come from this conference but why not try!? Why not blindly trust some people with your real self and see what happens?! It's better than not trusting anyone, right?!






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17 comments:

  1. Reeve- I am really excited about this journey of trust you are on. It really is hard to open up to others, and the reality is you probably will get hurt again. It is so worth it, though, to find those people you can totally be yourself with...you have so much to gain as well. I feel ya though and I get it...I don't know how many times I have said "OK, that is it...I am not trusting anyone anymore" and then slowly, after a while, I end up letting someone else in and I am surprised again by the joy that real friendships can bring to my life. i love you girl! Even though I don't get to see you a lot these days, I am cheering for you over here!

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    1. Hey Cammie!! So nice to hear from you. Thanks for the cheers;)

      Hope you and the fam are well.

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  2. so glad you went! :) so amazing to watch you grow in trusting others...

    i love annie too! reading her blog is a highlight of the week!

    p.s. when are you going to blog about the beach birthday???

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    1. Thanks Caroline. I'm hoping to have my beach post up this week. It's hard to pick which photos and what stories and how to describe the amazing event. I'm still in a post-beach haze.

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  3. i loved reading your thoughts here and hearing them in my home. i'm so thankful you came. as you know, i'm walking a difficult season in friendships and it's just so hard to feel like you can really trust someone ... or just give into trying to trust them.

    anyway ... i'm incredibly thankful we've connected and i pray this is just the beginning. :)

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    1. Tracie - I too hope that this is just the beginning and maybe two people with trust issues will cancel out the lack of trust;)

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  4. i love when stepping out of our little boxes satisfies something in our soul...and gives us confidence to try it again. i can only imagine the blessings that will pour from this weekend, and i so wish i was there!

    (thanks for the sand dollar compliment! i loved making them for tracie!)

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    1. Dawn! They were such a fun gift! I'm trying to decide what to do with mine now:) Oh the options!

      I'm gonna add a link to your blog as the creator of the fabulous crocheted sand dollars:)

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  5. I started reading the (in)courage blog about a year ago, and agree it is often a challenging and heart-piercing read. Around that time I came across Sara's blog and to say she touched my life is an understatement. I prayed for her, I rejoiced with her, I cried nearly every entry she wrote, cried out of conviction and hate for this ugly world. I've never felt so strongly about the writing about a person I'd never meet (this side of heaven). These ladies' willingness to serve and be witnesses is pretty powerful.
    On another note, do you read the Good Woman Project? Different demographic, still very challening and interesting (and a little less mom-talk).
    Love you! Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Holly! So happy to know you read (in)courage and know and love sara! I'll def check out good woman project.

      Love you and miss you too.

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  6. So glad you went!!! Would love to see you soon! Love you lots!!!!
    Angela

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  7. such fun. i'm gonna have to tune back into incourage now. i'm right there with ya friend... revealing the dirt slowly... my goal too!

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    1. I'm so glad I have friends like you that are in the same place so we can do together. Love you,friend.

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  8. We're big big fans of Annie too. And I so LOVE that you loved her reading her post. I asked if she'd be brave enough to do it for us and she didn't hesitate for a heartbeat. She's awesome like that! Also, how jealous am I at your swag - you guys had some of the best (in)RL swag out there I think!

    Warmest of wishes
    Lisa-Jo

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  9. Besties. Totes. Forevs.

    Mainly, thanks for your kind words.

    (And yes, I'll be seeing my friend Nester in the fall, if not sooner. You shall be notified.)

    (Also, that nail polish. What is the color? I need to know. Like, NEED to know. Srsly.)

    (Amen.)

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    1. ANNIE! I'm now sooo embarrassed at my excitement but at the same time Nester as reassured me that we really would get along well. So here's to internet friends - you are my first;)

      can't wait to meet you in person!

      nail polish color is "turquoise & caicos" by essie. happy nail painting!

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